Trust

I was waiting for you again. I was waiting and hating myself for it.

I wish you cared enough for me not to make me wait.
I wish you cared enough for me not to make me doubt you.

I wish I knew you will come.
I wish I believed in you enough to know you won't hurt me.
I wish I trusted you.

Am I incapable of trusting you? Or is it that you have not earned my trust? Is this my problem or yours?

I do not know.
All I know is that it is a problem.